Making up Lost Time
I was grappling with a certain sugya for about two weeks. In spite of the mental gymnastics, I could not get to the root of understanding the sugya. I was very upset by this. I decided to go into the Beit Hamidrash and engross myself in the sugya, until I would merit comprehending it completely and finding resolutions to all of my difficulties.
B’chasdei Shamayim, after much time and toil, I finally merited knowing the subject, in all its fine details. I found solutions to all of my queries.
I was filled with tremendous joy at having ultimately understood the sugya. At the same time, I berated myself for waiting so long to settle the matter. Had I exerted myself earlier, I would certainly have discovered the truth at that point. But I was too lazy to take the plunge into the sea of the Talmud then. Therefore, I went around confused and distracted for two full weeks. Time that could have been well spent studying Torah went to waste.
